Thursday, December 15, 2005

Inamorata... where art thou...

"Devil's Diary"

How pained I am, by the look on your face, as your tears fall down to the floor.
It is of hate, confusion and sadness, a medley not at all appreciated by myself.
Of course, it is not because I hate you, it is because I love you, and want you.
I cannot let you stay with me, for that will tarnish and stain your beauty.
I cannot let the divinity within you be blemished by my evil ways and thoughts.
That is right, I, the demon, fell for an angel, I, so worthless, found love.
I, so incompetent, was shown it, I at the mercy of my beloved angel, but...
we must part, I cannot let the laws be broken, the harmony must return.
Between good and evil the balance must be kept, for you with me disturbs it.
You and I both know that this is best for us, or we simply vanish, no trace.
I yearn for you, the very second I let you go, but remember, I with the dead heart,
found it beat, and beat only for you, and none else, remember me, up in heaven.
As you, an angel, one of purity and beauty, are able to charm me, one with no passion,
one with no feelings at all, or so this one thought, until you come,now these diaries I write.
How useless it may seem yet I do it, for you, others will simply sway me in another direction.
It is only you who truly understands me, the evil, it is not because I wish to do so.
It was because I was made to do so, I never wanted this, and as of yesteryear..
all I ever wanted... was you....

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Sadness came, and I let him live here, for good.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Pissing off someone...

Decode to me this cipher, the complexity of emotion
the joy of happiness and the feeling of elation
the void of sadness and the fall of your smile
make this moment between us most worthwile

I seek not your forgiveness for I give no regret
yet all I can mange to say is that I'll never forget
never yet seen you in this state, this angry before
we've pushed past the limit went deeper than the floor
the darkness insede and the havoc it so brings
no soothing balm to cover with, no boom for feelings
what more can I utter, what else can I say
we friends? of yours are juvenile, get up, go on your way

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"Having fun here and there can lead to pissing of someone,
kinda sucks especially when you've done a lot to him already."

Monday, September 26, 2005

Another day closer to death

Define a time when nothing will prompt you...
You can't... each day... silently, something will just...
grab on... foce you... make you... want to...

"Well... today a ban was placed for HS and GS to play in internet cafes
sucks, 'cos I'm addicted to playing a game there DotA-A. Well yeah..
that's it..."

"Oh yeah... I'm being forced to change myself again, to just... be normal..."

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Ignorance is bliss

The dawn of a new tide awakes
deep in the darkness
light shines through
yet, it only lingers through luck
the dominance of the darkness
it chokes the light, oh help me
revive me oh goddess
bring me to salvation
for am I pulled down
by the demon within...

"Having a bad day, change is needed, yet... procrastination casts its hold.. so tight.. it's choking me..."